In a World of my Own

I suppose if I could have it my way, I would just sit on the porch in the sun reading.
I mean, wouldn't that be a lovely way to spend time?

Instead of worrying about SATs and AP exams
Instead of stressing over work and college
Instead of feeling blue and sick
Instead of everything.

One of my absolute favorite books is Alice in Wonderland.
I want to have my own wonderland.
A place I could just escape to without worry.

Do you see a theme in this post?
I'm over-the-top worried about my life.
Yay for being a teenager at the craziest time.

A to Z

I stole this from my lovely friend Lauren. Check her out @ http://laurenendicott.blogspot.com/. She's a pretty cool cat. Alright, here goes...

Age: 16

Bed size: rather small

Chore you hate: cleaning my room. It takes ages!

Dogs: Fritz! My cute, big, cuddly doggy.

Essential start to your day: cranberry juice & a warm shower.

Favorite color: torn between red, green, & mustard yellow.

Gold or Silver: Silver dahling.

Height: 5'8

Instrument: flute, piano, & hopefully ukulele and geetar.

Job Title: "Sales Associate" & "Receptionist"

Kids: ha.

Live: new england.

Mom's name: Deana.

Nickname: I don't really have one. Emma is short enough I guess.

Overnight hospital stays: so far, none.

Pet peeves: arrogance, among many things.

Quote from a movie: "I love you, I'll call you in 5 minutes"
-Buddy the Elf

Right-handed or left-handed: lefty!

Siblings: Ben & Peter.

Time you wake up: 4:45 every weekday.

Underwear: yes, I wear underwear...?

Vegetables you dislike: I love veggies!

What makes you run late: Changing my outfit. Or my family dilly-dallying.

X-rays: my mouth, my back, my arm.

Yummy food you make: chocolate peanut butter bars. numnumyumyumyum.

Zoo animal: elephants, they are the cutest things.

Rawr

Ok, I need to vent. I cannot STAND when people assume they know you when in actual reality, they haven't got a clue who you really are. I honestly don't know how I come off as to other people. Some think I'm stuck up while others think I am extremely innocent. But really, I am neither of those things. I am just a person trying to live my life. I don't bother anyone and most of the time people don't bother me. I usually keep to myself, but if something important to me is thrown into the conversation, I speak up. It just drives me crazy when people assume I am a certain way because of my religion, or my family, or any other thing. Things happen in my life and I learn. Hello, that is how it is for everyone. This is probably why I keep to myself, I just cannot stand people sometimes. Ok vent over.

Oh boy. This picture is a little too hipster.

Today I sort of got a reality check.
I had no idea how distracted I've been this past term.
I've been floating around, just like a zombie.
School is not going so hot.
So I guess I've really got to work on that.

On the brighter side of life, my roadtrip is in two weeks!
My mum, my brother, & I are hitting the road as soon as april vacation starts.
We are visiting friends, looking at colleges, and visiting our nation's capital!
I am totally stoked. I've never been.
I'm also going to test out my diana camera,
and of course bring around my lovely old gal as well.
It will be a full week of mixed tapes, pb&j's, and loveliness.
I can not wait.

I am trying to keep as positive as possible about this final stretch.
Summer is creepin' in, but I need to stay focused.
& although I can't wait for summer, I don't want it coming to quick.
Because truthfully, I'm scared of growing up to fast.

Lately I'm really unsure of where I am headed.
I mean what am I working at?
I don't know where I want to go, or what I want to do.
I give things so much effort and end up with less than I expect.
It sounds whiny and selfish,
but I just want to be amazing.

I just want to do something and be amazing at it. I want to be the best.

I realize that sounds terrible, but it would be really nice. It would make me feel good anyway.

Anyways, life is exciting and scary, but I'm surviving. Things always seem worse than they are, and you know what? I am almost there. So I am going to rub some dirt in it, and just relax.

Have a lovely weekend!

Florence + the Machine

This is my favortie music video ever. Florence is just a vision and I adore the autumn colors.

I Believe

Prom Night

Well Friday night I went to this little dance called prom... there were family members.....

candid pictures...........

pretty flowers............

tongues that just couldn't stay in people's mouths.....

classy dresses...well at least in my circle of friends...

faces made at my stage mom of a mother............

lovely hair my auntie did up...............

beautiful friends............

funny friends..........

me ruining pictures because I made faces at my mom...

handsome boys.........

silly, beautiful friends.........

the best prom date ever.......

.......and the sillest..........

best bro pictures..........

favorite full length pictures.........

cute angle pictures..........

just cute........

& good looking faces...........

Oh so many pictures!

I couldn't have asked for a better prom!

It was filled with silly moments, ackward moments, but best of all sweet moments.

My best friend Tyler is quite the gentlemen.

He was the best prom date ever.

& the best guy friend a girl could have.

My friends never fail to make ever outing hilarious.

So of course, prom was filled with those silly times.

I won't even tell you about the ackward times.

Let's just say hiding out in the bathroom from a dance contest

& meeting strange older women with crazy stories.

Enough said.

Prom was lovely and I'm glad I have such wonderful friends.

I Just Want to Sing

Guys, this is my best friend Tyler. He's the sweetest kid I know. Also he is my prom date! 1 week! I am kind of excited now that I've got the dress, shoes, ticket, date, hair app., & make-up all squared away. Gosh, prom is exhausting! And I haven't even had it yet!

Spring is almost here! Well technically it is here, but the weather sure isn't showing it. But my spring fever has already started, and I'm going with it.

Spring has to be my favorite time of the year. It is such a nice time before the heat and mosquitos set in. I adore this weather.

I love the flowers and birds that arrive. They are so encouraging.

I love soaking up the sun and taking long walks.

I love the feeling of wanting to sing and dance. It's such a lovely feeling to have.

I love spring. I cannot wait until I can open my windows and blast the Beatles! (I've actually already got a head start on that. I know it's cold but I just couldn't wait!)

Don't let spring pass you by, it only lasts a short while, so enjoy it while you can!

I know I will!

Light my Candle

Charlotte and I had a photoshoot this past weekend and here are some of the pictures. I am so lucky to have a friend who doesn't mind having pictures taken of her! I get to practice my photography, and she gets to practice her modeling.

Sunday

Well, today I had myself a little melt down.

Ok, not so little.

I'm just going crazy and I feel so overwhelmed and I don't know where I'm going or who I am. It's just been one of those days. Few days actually. At some point I just snapped. I'm usually ok at holding it all in and keeping calm, but I burst! Sometimes I can only stretch so far before I break.

The good news is that I took the SATs, and I think I did ok.
I also got to spend time with some friends last night which was nice.

But seriously, I have to shake this bad mood. Because it's starting to really ruin my life. I've got some big things to decide, and do and I am determined to have a positive attitude about it all.

"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside of us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any other experience that reveals the human spirit."

-E.E.Cummings

As of Now

SO, here's what has been happening recently.

• I washed my phone. So I have an excuse to get a new one. Yay!
• I got my Diana camera & fisheye lens in the mail today! asdfghjkl SO EXCITED!
• I have an official prom date (my best friend Tyler) and everyone, and I mean everyone, in my grade has prom fever. It kind of obnoxious/exciting all at once.
• I am taking SATS on Saturday, and I am extremely nervous. Extremely.
• I feel so lame and boring all the time. I have nothing interesting to say, ever. Yay for being the lamest of the lame.
• I hate spending money, yet this month has been the worst money pit I've experienced in my career. Junior year stuff is very expensive.
• I have never wanted Junior Year to be over more than I do right now.

And that is my up to date/ oh so boring life.

Long live the Queen of the Lame.

Baptism!

One of my absolute best friends was baptised this past Friday! It was a very small baptism, but it was beautiful. I felt such a strong spirit there, and I just know she'll do great things! She one of the sweetest, coolest people I've ever known and I love having her in my life. Love you Hallie!
Oh, and just in case you're curious about what we believe, click here: http://www.mormon.org/

Prom Dress

Hello.
Meet my prom dress, Red.
She's pretty cute, no?

Happy March!

Hello there! Happy 2nd day of March!
I would have said happy march 1st, but I was sicky yesterday :(

So I just got back home after spending 3 hours on the dentist. Yuck.
Why do dentists insist on talking to you while they clean your teeth?

I heard something interesting that actually makes a lot of sense.
Did you know sleeping on your tummy means you worry to much?
Oh, and guess who sleeps on her tummy?
Yeah, this guy.
Explains a lot I suppose.

SO, it is the start of a new month and so far this month, I've eaten too much junk food and have not done anything productive. This is not good.
But, my plan is to get a healthy start and get in shape! Spring is soon! Prom is too, blah.

March always make me want to eat healthier and exercise. March is the month mum hates the most, but I actually quite like it. (I hate January most, eh its just the worst.)

Alright, so here's to a new, lovely month!

p.s. Isn't Fritzburg the cutest dog around?

Everything is Beautiful

I spent the day yesterday in Boston with my lovely friend Janessa. Who I love oh so much. We walked through the North End catching up on our crazy Junior Year lives, then we made it to Faneuil Hall. She got Chinese, I got Seafood and the catching up continued. I loved every minute of it.
We went to Urban Outfitters (love) and found lots of goodies that entertained us for at least an hour. We saw a Peruvian group perform, and visited the Christmas in Boston store & the Croc Store, just for fun.
I got some gelato, she had a cookie. We entered a flower shop and exited with a Venus flytrap, puzzling over what to name the little thing.
We relaxed at McDonald's and played the game where you make up life stories about the people around you. It was interesting. It was getting dark and we were walking by the vegetable market that was closing.
We saw some guy in a debacle with an Asian woman and then proceed to throw here cart of green beans and bananas in the crosswalk. Then smash it to death. I truly wish I knew what was happening.
That night we heard an Elder speak which was lovely and spiritual. And crowded. I don't know how I managed to get out of there. It was still a wonderful time.
On the way home I crashed for lack of sleep (chocolate party) and finally FINALLY went to bed.

Successful weekend.


P.S.
Chocolate Movie Parties are absolutely a great idea. Eating junk, staying up all night, playing just dance 2, watching silly movies, and most of all gossiping are honestly good for your health.