Ferris Bueller

This poor little blog has been so neglected lately. But big, stressful, life things have been happening and leaving me exhausted. College this, school that. Friends, family, church, work. There just isn't enough Emma to go around. But I did have a stress-relieving day yesterday!

My best friend Charlotte came home from her ballet boarding school for a long weekend and I ditched school to spend the day with her! It was very cold and very very rainy. But it was perfect.

Have you seen the show Parenthood? I mainly started watching it because Lauren Graham was in it, and I am Gilmore Girls no. 1 fan, but now I am totally hooked.

It honestly makes me so emotional. But in the good kind of way.

Hm, I really don't have too much else to say. I'm just working a lot. Merry Christmas by the way. Hallmark is decked out in ornaments and Peanuts products. It's a crazy time right now. Then there's college applications which are FREAKING ME OUT. I am really trying to get into BYU or BYU-I. They are cheaper for me and I just really want to try that out. Being around some different people, trying something new. It scares me to leave New England and my family though. But I need to take the plunge sometime, somehow. I really really want to get into either of those two.

I need to catch up my grades & catch up my Zzz's this weekend. That is my goal. I also have a photoshoot Saturday morning and a church activity & concert Saturday night! It is going to be a really fun weekend. No work either! How strange is that?

Have a lovely weekend kitties!

A Little Hello

Even though senior year is insane, I've been trying to enjoy it.

My last year home? It just doesn't seem real.

Wherever I end up I'm sure it will be great.

But nothing can top a New England autumn. 

So I am just going to sit back, enjoy a fresh apple, and stare at the leaves.

I live in the most beautiful place in the world. 

Music Crush



Oh My Gourd

Do you ever read the signs in front of stores as you drive past?

Well, it is one of my favorite past times. 

And some are seriously witty, which is always a delight.

Particularly in the autumn.

Don't ask me why, but I get a kick out of them.

Here's a gem I saw last week outside of a church,

"Autumn leaves, Jesus doesn't."

Okay c'mon people! That is hilarious.

Last year my mum and I were driving past a flower shop.

And guess what their sign said,

"Oh my gourd, pumpkins for sale."

Oh my gourd, Oh my gourd, Oh my gourd?

Tell me that's not the greatest thing you've ever heard.

My mother and I still crack up over it.

Senior Picture

 Well you picked it.

Here's my senior picture!

It was a really beautiful location in Acton, ME where my grandparent's have their lake house. We went to a hill overlooking an apple orchard. The foliage was surreal and these pictures just don't do it justice!

So what do you think? This picture will be forever after all. I'm honestly pretty pleased with it. My mother took it. It took a while and a few spats before we finally got the hang of things. I just feel better behind the viewfinder than in front of it. I was critiquing and being sort of bossy. But I know what I want! If I could take my own photos I would, but my mom did a pretty good job I think!

PS I am a squinter. I mean the picture on the right. That is honestly how I usually look. Pale and squinty.

Update

Breakfast At Tiffany's is on netflix instant watch. So guess what I am watching right now? Today was a beautiful day. I went out to breakfast before school with a few friends and ate the MOST delicious pancakes of my life. Then I had a field trip to the Isabella Stewart Gardner Museum in Boston which was absolutely beautiful. And I just got home from a football game, I'm in the band. The only downside was I had a physical at the doctors and got 2 shots and a finger prick :(

Oh yes, just another exciting episode of Ways Emma Bores Us With Her Life Stories. But I digress.

Is it insane to want to spend all of your time alone, but then to want someones company at the same time? I just cannot stand people anymore and I want to just live under a rock, but then I think I would miss people. It is completely backwards.

I feel like Holly Golightly sometimes. She s always uncertain and moving. I'm that way. She's afraid to get attached to things, so am I. I am having a hard time surviving at the moment. I want to just erase everything and start over. College could not come fast. Whoa, knock on wood. I don't really mean that.

Did I tell you I wrote my college essay on The Beatles? And everyone seems to like it so far? I am feeling pretty content with it. Of course, I'm still one big ball of stress, but what can ya do.

I think I will catch up on some sleep. I'm so glad it is such beautiful fall weather. Perfect for getting all comfy cozy, and snuggling up in a warm blanket! Goodnight moon!

Colors of the Wind

It gets exhausting being me. But I'm lucky I got to squeeze in a photo shoot with these lovely ladies last week. They are both applying to art schools, so we are all taking turns taking shots of each other. Alicia's shooting us next, check her out at her blog! She is one of my closest friends and she has a sweet soul.She's a little rough around the edges, but it just makes her that much more beautiful! Haley is quite a doll as well! I love spending time with her, because she is seriously the raddest girl I know. With impeccable music taste!

My week has been insane. 20 hours plus of work. Not to mention full time school with hours of homework included. Oh, and my car broke down. And I feel completely incompetent.

Worst of all college is stressing my out so much. I need to write my entire college essay this week, and I want it to be just perfect! I want it to be unique and creative but not too out there. I want it to all make sense and capture me in one paper. It is proving to be a lot more difficult than I thought.

I had this plan for senior year, that I would take SO many pictures so I could remember it. But I haven't been doing that :( I actually just thought about that plan and wanted to cry. I have been extremely emotional lately. There's a lot going on in my head. So tomorrow I'm going to start taking a picture a day AT LEAST. This is my year, I won't let it pass me by! Wish me luck this week!

Exciting/Overwhelming

Here's an update on my life. And listen, I know I'm pretty boring and pretty lame for getting worked up over silly things. But, whatever. Shut up.

SO, I was working yesterday (at hallmark.) This woman came in with a southern accent (I do not live in the south.) She was very talkative and very open. She immediately started piling things on the counter saying "I want that, and that, and that." I was honestly getting pretty freaked out because she was getting some really expensive stuff. And she KEPT GOING. My friends came to visit me while this was happening, and this woman was very nosy while I talked to them. A little while later she came up to me and told me my friends were arrogant. I guess that they were making "retarded" noises in the back of the store and she got offended. I mean I understand that that is offensive but it wasn't like they were being forwardly obnoxious. But she KEPT bringing it up and I kept saying I'm sorry. What else was I supposed to do? Then she told me that she and Jimi Hendrix had been dear friends. That's when I finally thought,

Okay, this woman is from the loony bin.

She was still stacking up piles of stuff while this whole conversation was going on and I was getting really worried. Things just weren't matching up. Then she told me that she was BFFs with Cher and Cher had invited her to the premiere party of Burlesque, but she wasn't able to go. I was freaking out. This lady was nuts. Then she started in on personal things like her bank account and telling me her daughter had tried to kill her. I HATE when customers, or anyone for that matter, discuss personal things and what do you say? It just makes things weird for you. So I rang all of her things up, and it came out to around $550. AT HALLMARK. I was honestly shaking by the time it was done.

All I could think was that this Hallmark story definitely beats the one where I dropped the wine glass on mother's day and almost cried.

I'm sure most of you found that story boring, but it was a big deal. So there.

In other news, I've been thinking about college essays and applications and scholarships and all that scary stuff. Not to mention important things like my senior pictures, cap & gown money, all that jazz. Oh, and some church stuff I need to think of like catching up on my tithing and getting my patriarchal blessing.

STRESSING OUT LIKE CRAZY.

Movie Crush


Finally got around to watching Burlesque.
I loved it! No one can sing like Christina. 

Dream a Little Dream

Well yesterday I looked at colleges. YIKES. If I wasn't nervous before I sure am now. Just the idea of going off somewhere, not knowing anyone, and not even knowing who I am or what I want makes me want to crawl  under the covers and hide. But I think it's about time I told you about my latest idea, one that I really think might stick...

Here it is. I have a bit of a check list for my future job.

I want a place that reflects who I am.
I want a place where I won't dread going everyday.
I want to stay in New England (please)
AND
I want to be the boss

Ahaha tough list right? WRONG. I've got the perfect plan.

I would like to own a little cafe. I would style it all in my own way, serving yummy sandwiches and treats! Anything I felt like! I would make all the play lists myself and there would even be a little book nook. A cozy little spot to call mine. It sounds like a dream come true to me. Now trust me, I am aware of this economy. I am aware of how difficult it is to get a business like this up of the ground. But you know what? I am willing to do this. I figure I will take business classes in college, dream my way through (study too!) and make it happen. Hopefully I can do it! What do you think? Would you stop by for a chocolate peanut butter bar and a good jam or two?

Right now I would love to dream and plan for this, but unfortunately I've got homework to do.
Senioritis rears it's ugly head again. Gr, so many fun things to do, but so little time for fun.

XOXO emma

Music Crush

Senioritis

What a crazy diease. Is it wrong to wear pajamas to school already? Or to keep missing homework? But ecspecially to not even care?

I'm not THAT bad, but I seriously can't do this high school thing anymore.

To tell you the truth, I don't even feel real right now. I don't feel like a senior. I don't feel nervous or excited for college. It all just hasn't hit me. I think I used up all my emotions last year with the junior hectic-ness. It kind of sucks too, because I know it's all going to come in one unpleasant swoosh and I am going to fall. For now I am in 'seminary, school, homework, work, repeat' mode. Let's wish me luck with this.

Oh, and just listen, love this one.

I think I am just going to relax tonight. Too tired for words.

Just One of those Days

This week has been rough. I mean Monday was wonderful (that's when these pictures were taken.) I went to the beach for probably the last weekend of the summer. I also met an incredible film photographer. Check out his work here. But ever since then, it's been all down hill.

Yesterday had to have been the worst day of my life. Let's just say I almost got in a car accident because some idiot decided to ignore a stop sign. And no, I am not that idiot. Later that night I was an idiot though, and left my headlights on at work...for 5 hours. My battery died and I had to get the mall cops to jump my car. I was so distressed and distracted that I ran my first red light. That was just the cherry on top. I got home and discovered my phone fell apart in my purse, due to a spillage of eye make-up remover. So that's gone. Then my car wouldn't start today because apparently my battery holds grudges. Cool.

To add to this whole mess, I've been in a terrible mood. I honestly think school is a major contributor. It's depressing. And I'm not just talking about the work load or the snotty kids, I think school seriously affects you're mind. It makes you feel low and rotten. So that's just great. Oh, and did I tell you I'm sick? Yep, I could probably come up with more awesome things but I think it's time to look to the positive.

I am grateful that I was safe and did not get in a car accident.
I am grateful for mall cops and their jolly dispositions.
I am grateful that I am lucky enough to have the oppurtunity for an education.
I am grateful that I only have allergies and not a life-threatening diease.
I am grateful that I have a car, even if we're in a fight.

Remember When Irene Came Through Town?

Oh Irene. We lost power for 30 hours and this is how things were last Sunday night. It was actually kind of nice. I love candles and it was fun to have an excuse to light them all!

One of my Favorites

Warning: I'm Angry

Alright, I normally try not to dwell to much on human behavior because frankly, I find it horrible. I also don't quite understand it. Why do people do all these terrible things to people who truly care? Why are people insane is basically my question.

If there is a person giving you genuine advice and who honestly wants to help you, let them. Thank them. At least act grateful. If you treat people like crap, newsflash, they are going to abandon you. Nobody wants to be your friend when you look down on them and if you treat them terrible. I know that is a really hard concept to understand, but get it through your head, that is just the way it is.

The fact that you can simply toss your real friends aside who tried to help, just for the sake of popularity or 5 minutes of fame, is seriously sick. And no one really wants to be friends with that sort of person anyway. I think friendship is so important, and when a friend doesn't treat you right, you need to let them loose. Makes sense right?

I'm sorry for this mean post, but my friend has been seriously mistreated. Her intentions are pure and she has a beautiful soul. Maybe she has a more colorful use of words, and maybe she doesn't want to be best friends with the person she tried to help, but she deserves such better treatment. There's more to people than you might think.

I encourage everyone to look past just someones face and attitude. I admit I've been in quite the judgmental zone lately, but if I really think about it, everyone is good. Even if it's deep down. I definitely needed to get this out of my system so I can move on. I am trying a detox of all things judgmental. I really want to get back to the good ol' me. The one who was sweet and kind. Let's get that girl back pronto!

Music Crush

Simon & Garfunkel are always a #1 music crush for me. But I feel like I love them in autumn ecspecially. Mmm I am so glad fall is on it's way!

Tell Me About Yourself

The first day of school was not so bad. But, don't you just hate when teachers give the same speech 8 times in one day? Do this, Don't do that. Be good, don't cheat, be on time, bring a pencil. Wa wa wa wa (peanut style.) Oh and then I dread the "fill out this survey so I can get to know you better."

Okay, um, I actually don't want you to know everything about me. Also, I hate writing about myself when other people are going to see it. List your best qualities? I can't, if I list them I sound snotty, if I don't it sounds like I completely hate myself. Tell me what your plans are for the future? Well teach, I haven't quite figured that out yet, so STOP ASKING ME. It just went on and on for 8 periods. Talk about torture. I'd rather just jump into some curriculum and do actually work. Can you believe I just said that?

Okay, okay. I should probably stop. I mean it was actually pretty great. Being a senior is awesome so far. I feel confident and kind of old. I have friends in almost every class and it just feels great! I think this year is going to be really good. Probably crazy busy but hey, what else is new?

By the way, I would REALLY appreciate if you would take just 2 seconds to vote for a couple of photos I have in a contest right now. I titled them "Kissing Cows" and "The Little Pigs." They are both entered in a fair picture contest and I believe the prize is 1,000? Just click HERE and you will be sent to the facebook page. Thank you so much!

Anyways, I must go. Closing tonight, opening tomorrow. Oh what a life I lead. Hallmark, I love you so. I'm just going to go sniff all the fall-scented candles all night! See ya!

Oh deer

Daw, look at all my beautiful friends! We decided to spend one of our last summer days getting all fancy and going into Boston. It was one of my favorite days this summer I must say! We went to Fanuil Hall and sort of just hung around. We ate, shopped, and flirted with almost every street performer we could find (they were all really cute!) It was a perfect day.

Except tomorrow I have to go back to school :(

I cannot believe that I am starting my senior year of high school! It is simply unreal. I just want to crawl in a ball right now and hide from the world. It is not going to be all that bad though. I have great classes lined up, and a great group of friends. Plus I have my job, a car, and a pretty solid idea of college lists that I plan on applying for. But for some reason I am so scared. Life is just going by so quick and I feel like I can't hold on to it. I have all these wild ideas and dreams and I'm scared I won't be able to do all of them. Or that what I don't want to become, I will become. I'm sure I'm just freaking myself out but there's always that thought in the back of my mind.

Another thing I've been thinking is something I think everyone wonders at some point. I just wonder if my friends would like me, if no one else was friends with me? Does that make any sense haha? I guess I've just been feeling distant from some friends and I miss them. Also, I feel like some friends don't really know me too well. But that's just a silly thought I've been having.

Please ignore how insane my mind works. I just need to relax and get excited! After all, senior year is going to be amazing! It's just the very 1st day of school I dread. Once I pass that it will be smooth sailing! Wish me luck friends! Ciao!

A Little Note

I just found a bunch of fun pictures like this saved to my computer! Sweet! This pictures describes how I feel right now! I am so excited because tomorrow is a girlfriend day!

My friends and I are off to Boston bright and early for a bit of "last day of summer" fun. We don't even have a set plan, we just need to go. Of course, it is not the last day of summer anymore. We got an extra day due to Miss Irene. Thanks girl. The downside of her visit was the 30 hours of no power, the lack of gas, the rotten food, and the death of my phone. But other than that, it's all good.

It was a crazy storm, and we ran into her head on. We drove home from Maine right into the storm and even saw a tree collapse right in front of us! Alas, we all survived and are healthy and well. It's been a couple of crazy days, but I can't complain (well not too much!)

I have loads to say, and lots of ideas for this blog, but I always seem to post when I am utterly exhausted. No worries, I will get more creative later. I say that a lot don't I? I think I'm off to bed so I can wake up and have the best day ever! I love girlfriends and I love Boston! What a lovely combo!