I Have A Confession

My best friend makes me listen to the country station EVERY morning on the way to school because he knows how much I hate country music. But I've got to tell you guys something.

I don't think I hate it as much as I thought.
Okay before you say anything, I have definitely not been fully converted to it.
I mean that song about fishing? & the red solo cup? Seriously. So weird.
But, I am starting to love some of the good songs. Here's a couple of my favorites...

French Fries

*Just a side note, the peace signs & duck faces are not authentic. Thy are fun to make fun of.

Any who, I suck at blogging. I wish I was better at it. My down time is rare and when it shows up I spend it sleeping and watching How I Met Your Mother reruns.

As you can see, I braved ice skating once more, and I didn't suck as much this time!

Man, do I hate ice skating. Okay maybe not hate; strongly dislike.

I should probably fill you in on the big things happening right now in Emma Land.

I finished personal progress. That's been a long time coming.

I bought a prom dress yesterday & I'm learning to like it.

I'm now going to church an hour away cause I'm part of the YSA. 

& probably the most important thing, I decided where I am going to college. 

Drum roll please ........

BYU-IDAHO!

I have so much to say about this decision I hardly know where to start. Ever since I got accepted I had this strong feeling that that is where I need to be. Saturday night I found out that I didn't get into BYU in Utah. I wouldn't say I was crushed but I definitely felt pretty low. So many of my friends got in & now I just feel stupid. I am going to hear a lot of Aww Emma I'm so sorry. & that is probably the suckiest part.

But hey you know what?! This feeling means something, and not getting into BYU just made it more vivid. I know where I need to be now, even if it means feeling a little sucky for a while. I am so scared to go far away, to a school I've never seen, but it's all part of the experience right?! Plus I have some good friends who will be there with me, and the gospel never changes, no matter where you are! That's a big comfort!

& let's not forget, Idaho is land of the potatoes right? That must make for some great french fries ;)

Long Time No Blog

Let's play some ketchup...I mean catch-up...

We had Senior Dinner Dance/Senior Emmy Night a couple weeks ago.

Here was my thought process by the end of the night...

-Wait, I paid $40 bucks for this?!

-I didn't win best hair, okay. So what's all this for anyways?

-Jay is the coolest waiter ever, well sort of.

-I'm glad hell is almost over. Opps, I mean high school.

-I never want to see a hoe's underwear for the rest of my life. Or lack of underwear I should say.

-These kids are freakin' classy. Um, yeah that was sarcasm.

Connect the dots people. This girl is so unbelievably done with high school it's ridiculous.

At least I looked cute is all I can say. Except for my black bra.

I guess I'm not so classy after all.

Right now, I am dying to vent about everything under the sun, but I am going to refrain. All it would do is make me look horrible and whiny. Also, I would probably lose all my friends. So time to suck it all back in and slap a grin on my face. I am hatin' these winter time blues.

BIG NEWS

Well guess who finally got accepted into college? ME!

Brigham Young University-Idaho.

It is my first acceptance so I am over the top excited!

Also, it is my 2nd choice if I do not get into BYU.

Yay for me! I found out Thursday in the Mcdonalds' parking lot.

Is that classy or what? Something I will always remember.

I got home later that day and Mum had bought me a Hallmark Card!

She had the boys sign it and everything! She was so excited for me :)

Sorry for the terrible webcam quality. Also for the zits. But check out my happy smile!

I instantly felt relieved that moment I found out.

It was no secret that I had been feeling anxious and lousy while the rest of my friends were getting into schools. Now I am happy and I love it!

I'm still nervous about BYU but I know whatever happens, happens for a reason.

The Lord has got a plan for me, and I cannot wait to see what happens!

Today is Sunday, and I am feeling overwhelmingly grateful for my church.

Everyone there is so real. I feel more love there than any place on earth.

Except for home of course. But even so, there is nothing like the love you feel at church.

Sundays are my favorite day. They recharge me to take on the week ahead.

My friends there, inspire me and help me feel confident about myself.

Many of my friendships have been kind of shaky recently, but going to church and being around all these other kids who get it, and know what I'm going through is such a great blessing.

I feel so comfortable with them, and I wish that I could spend more time with them.

Ecspecially my best friend, who lives far away right now. I hate to sound so needy, but I really do need her sometimes, to tell me I am doing the right thing.

Man, I hope she calls me soon. I need to vent.

Anyways, I'm feeling good today. I just got home from church.

I am listening to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir and I just had a slice of pudding pie.

Could life get any better?



Dear Lord Baby Jesus

One of the funniest movies, I swear. Is it disturbing that my family will quote this at the dinner table?

Probably not the best movie choice for a Sunday night, but it seems to keep coming up in conversation. I just had to watch it!

Lots of things have been happening in my life lately, but I can't find my camera cord! So hopefully I can upload some pictures soon!! I have a 4 day weekend, so I am hoping to get some things done. Particularly personal progress and a little surprise for my best friend. Yay!!!

There's my little update. Once I get the chance I will write something that doesn't suck. xoxo Emma

Blurp & Music Crush

Cleaning hardcore right now. I want to start the new year off right.

Speaking of starting the new year off right, I have started the dieting proccess! Huzzah for me!

Of course, I am not entirely commited as of yet (I may have had a few Hershey's Kisses today)

but I am still off to a good start.

Breakfast: 1 sliced green apple w/ sunflower seed butter (like peanut butter)

Morning Snack: Carrots

Lunch: Tuna w/ Miracle Whip & a slice of Mom's homemade bread with butter.

Dinner: Eggs & Cheese

I'm doing okay! I definitely want to do a smidge better, but it's only the second day. Give me a break!

Okay enough about my eating habits. Here's some music I've been digging lately!

I am on Bloglovin now!

2012

Happy New Year!

This is such a big year for me. I'm graduating!

2012, I'm so ready for you! I'm glad you're finally here!

Okay, so in November I heard about this huge New Years' dance and got REALLY excited. I've honestly been looking forward to it for a month. But you know what happens when you get your hopes up. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed yesterday. I felt sickypoo and lame all day. I had a tummyache & a headache. The day dragged on, and I mean draaaaged. I tried on my dress and wanted to die. All I could think was time for some serious dieting, pronto. Then some other stuff happened at the dance and basically it was breakdown central. I'm usually okay at containing the tears, but for some reason I was just exploding on everyone of my poor friends. I think it was a combination of a lot of things. Now that it is the day after, I just feel extremely embarrassed. Oh, and ready to start that diet. Which is happening this week by the way. BUT despite all of that, the dance had it's moments. I got to twirl around like a princess in my dress, see some friends that I love oh so much, & look forward to the future. Because the future is always brighter.

 And LOOK, the future is here! Things are finally starting, and I should be finding out from schools whether I'm in or not verrrry soon! Also, I started making my resolution list. Here it is,

1. Get into college

2. Get thinner

3. Start on that book

4. Finish Personal Progress

5. Arise and shine forth

What's that last one, you ask? For the youth in my church we have a annual theme, and 2012's is:

"Arise and shine forth, that thy light might be a standard to all nations."(Doctrine & Covenants 115:5)

We talked about it today in class, and it really touched me. Lately I've been feeling sort of lonely. Okay not just lately, I usually do. But ecspecially now that I am getting older and all my friends are changing. At times I feel like a priss or that I am not good enough. But, I am making a New Year's resolution to brush that off my shoulders, get up, and show the world who I truly am. I know that I have the potential to do great things, but I am my own worst enemy. I need to love myself, so others can do the same. You can tell how emotional I am right now can't cha?

Alright 2012, you're here. Please treat me well.Let's get going on those resolutions.

xoxo Emma



Updated Pictures? Is This Real Life?

A few snapshots of the Thanksgiving/Christmas Season.

Brought to you by my super cute new laptop.

More to come. 

A Saturday Off? What's That?

I realized the other day that I haven't had a Saturday of in a million years. Not just that, but I always work in the morning, so no sleep for me. I shouldn't complain though, because working in the day is good. It gives me the night to parTAY! Like what I am doing right now.

I worked all day today, went to a church christmas party, and now I am sitting on the computer, shoving my face with popcorn, & crying while watching edward scissorhands. Um, it's emotional okay? I sometimes cannot even fathom how cool I am.

I was going to dye my hair, but I felt lazy. So that will be a task for tomorrow. That is sort of why I choose these pictures. To show you that  have a lot of hair. & if you didn't already know that, shame on you. Have you seen my blog title? Curliest hair in the land. Sure, one is ridiculous & the other is shadowy, but I think these pictures are hilarious. I mean look at me? So comical, it's crazy.

Um, my friend met Matt & Kim today, and I am so jealous. I hope I work with her soon because I need to hear about it. I wish exciting things like that happened in my life...

I always jumble my posts. I hope it's more quirky than confusing. I really want to write a book. Well, short stories. I just am not sure how to go about doing that. But I think it might work. I have lots to say. & I'm decent at writing. I have a voice at least. Should I start posting stories on here? Too weird? I don't know yet.

I at least need to start taking more new pictures and stop hunting down obscure old ones from my archives. That's right I am tricking you. These pictures are from September. I don't look like this now at all. I now have a double chin, a hairy unibrow, and pussy zits all over my face. Pleasant no? Now you are thankful I have no recent pictures. See what I did there?

Okay, I am going to stop sounding like a moron now. Goodnight all, enjoy your lives, I'm sure they are more eventful than mine. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Emma

Music Crush

Nothing new to report. Still freaking out. Still waiting for college results. Still hating myself basically. But my friend gave me a list of new music that I've been enjoying. Ecspecially these songs.

I'll keep you posted on college. Right now I am too anxious to do anything creative on here.

Sorry guys! Have a nice weekend xoxo.

December 1st

I don't have any nice pictures or lovely music for you today. Frankly I am too tired to even put in the effort. Basically I wanted to tell you that today is my due date. No, not pregnant. COLLEGE. I'm freakin' out. I suddenly decided that I actually do want to go far away for college. I am so sick of being here. That's not completely true, because I love New England dearly, but I need to start over. And now I am putting all my faith in this school, and if I don't get in I'll be crushed. I just know it. I just wish I could know. In or out. I am the world's worst worry-wart. Say that ten times fast. Today is December 1st. Usually this day makes me happy, it's the start of the christmas month, but instead I am tired and filled with worry. Not to mention guilt.

I've been crabby and judgmental, and let's just face it, a total burden to anyone who associates with me. No I am not saying feel sorry for me and I'm not playing a game of 'whose life is worse.' I'm just saying I've been tired and stress-y and a major witch because of it. I feel ugly/fat and horrendous. I hate the things I think and the things I do/don't do. I'm sort of sick of myself. I dropped a class at school because I got an F and now I'm taking almost all electives. I spend my days feeling like a failure. It totally sucks. But HEY you know what? I'm going to stop complaining about myself right here. Because I am becoming such a hypocrite. I hate when people do this, especially online, on a blog post. How pathetic/desperate. Although, here I am, doing the very thing I hate seeing done. Ugh.

Alright, here's something cool. I'm thinking about writing a novel. Well not really. More like a collection of short stories. A kid did that at school last year in an independent study and I just read through his book. It seems doable. At first I was nervous to ask and put myself on his level. You see he went to Harvard and I could never compare. But after reading his book, I feel like it's possible. I have been thinking about it all day. I've been jotting down story ideas and getting excited. I have so many things that I could write about! Even if I don't get approved for an independent study, I might just start writing it out on my own. I've always meant to write during my free time. But, seeing how that time hardly exists I haven't really. Now I feel inspired though. I'm not even sure how I got this idea in my head. I think a friend mentioned it. But all of a sudden I feel completely exhilarated. I'll keep you posted.

I feel so boring. All I talk about is lame stuff on here. Not that I talk about anything exciting when I'm not posting. All I talk about is my job, college crap, and lame school stuff. I don't have a boyfriend. My social life is pretty dull and repetative (I eat with my friends, see movies, & drive around. cool right?) Sometimes I wish something amazing would happen. Also I want to make my blog prettier. I KNOW. I've said this before plenty of times, but one of these days I'll get around to it.

Here's another piece of dull info. I FINALLY went to get my diana f+ film developed and surprise, surprise, it didn't come out. I was slighty bummed but I saw it coming. I definitely feel more confident now that I talked to the camera guy so here we go, round 2. Please disregard my 1st pancake. Hopefully this next time round, I will get it right and I'll have some cute pictures to share with you all.

I've almost run out of fuel on this blog post. Can you believe that? I've just talked about all sorts of boring things and now I'm just going to end. I hope you weren't expecting something awesome. You should have known better if you did. Please wish me luck and pray that I get into my college! It's feeling like a longshot, but I'm just going to keep my chin up. If you honestly read this whole thing, congrats you just learned how selfish/boring I am. But, hey, thanks for letting me vent! It's probably what I'm best at.

Okay time to stop being a hypocrite!

Emma xoxo

Thankful

I know that I've posted way too many videos lately.

But what is thanksgiving without the annual listening of "Alice's Restaurant"?

And if you haven't heard this song, you needed to be schooled.

So you're welcome.

I am so incredibly grateful today.

I had my very last high school football game today, and I've been feeling extremely nostalgic.

This also may be my last thanksgiving home for a while.

As I've spent time with my friends and my family I have really been thinking about the future.

I need to spend this time enjoying the people in my life and the place I live.

I am thankful for new england, and it's beauty.

I am thankful for my mom & dad who do so much.

I am thankful for my brothers who are really good kids, even if they bug me sometimes.

I am thankful for a good group of friends, who put up with me.

I am thankful for my grandparents and their love.

I am thankful for my church, which keeps me level headed.

I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who loves me and reminds me that I am a daughter of God.

I am thankful for a good job filled with caring people.

I am thankful for my comfortable home and my cozy bed.

I am thankful that I have food to eat and water to drink.

I am thankful for my experiences and the life I have lived so far.

I am thankful for the oppurtunities ahead of me.

I am thankful for good music and beautiful art.

I am thankful for my car, even when he gets moody.

I am thankful for my doggies, and the time we spend snuggling.

I am thankful for kitties and their purring.

I am thankful for candles.

I am thankful for my bright, new, red coat.

& I am thankful that it is now officially the christmas season!

AND I CAN LISTEN TO CHRISTMAS MUSIC AS MUCH AS I WANT WITHOUT ANNOYING ANYONE. HOORAY!

I have a truly beautiful life, and I am  grateful that we have this day to remind us to count our blessings. When I think about our troops suffering overseas, or of those people who hardly have the nesseccities of life to survive, I want to cry. Why do I complain so much when I am so lucky? I have so much.

I am so blessed.

Music Crush


"Without You"

Hello There

I have recovered! Sort of.

Tuesday sent me into a whole new sickness and I could not leave my bed.

But I got back in the swing of things today.

Do you ever feel like your life isn't real?

I'm just going about the motions, but I can't feel anything.

College seemed like this big, important thing (it is)

But, there's more to life than college.

It's weird to think that, because I've been working towards it for so long.

I am scared that I won't get in. Then I'll be really lost.

My blog is so boring. I had all these wonderful ideas back in the summer about how to spice things up.

I really need to do that.

I can't just keep using the "I'm busy" excuse.

There will never be a time when I'm NOT busy.

Hm, maybe that's something I'll work on.

My blog is also so scattered.

After all, it's just my random thoughts exploding on the page.

Man, I need to be more organized.

In EVERYTHING I do.

Cause, to tell you the truth, I'm a mess.

I need to get my act together. 

Sickypoo

Did I tell you I've been sicky for a week?

It started as a little cold, but grew into a monster.

I spend my whole nights coughing and have already gone through 2 boxes of tissues.

But luckily DayQuil saved my life today,

as well as, hot chocolate and beef stew.

I stayed home the past couple of days to rest and get back to normal.

Almost there.

In other news, I am obsessed with Josh Groban's voice.

I think it's love.

I'm also crazy about She & Him's new Christmas album.

Yes, I am one of those annoying people who starts her Christmas celebrations

right after Halloween. I actually considered starting Christmas before that, but I resisted.

People say that I'll get sick of it, but I know I won't.

It's the happiest time of the year! How could I ever get sick of Elf, twinkling lights, holiday-scented candles, Bing Crosby, snowflakes, hot chocolate, peppermint bark, fires, and cozy clothes?

Seriously people.

I work at Hallmark, there's no limit to what I can handle.

Life

I really love pictures of me like this.

This is my happy smile.

I'm working on the BYU application...again.

I just can't bear to send it in until it's perfect.

But I need to soon! I will just have to settle.

I'm feeling very distant and very crabby.

I'm not the same person that I once was.

But I'm trying to make everything better.

& I'm trying to figure out my life and make things happen.

I've been escaping through christmas music.

& through yummy foods.

& sleep, of course.

But before christmas overtakes Autumn, my favorite season,

here's a little playlist of fall tunes.

Fall Jams

Forever Young- Bob Dylan

The Sound of Silence- Simon and Garfunkel

Eyes- Peter Bjorn and John

O'Sister- City and Colour

California Stars- Billy Bragg and Wilco

The Hill- Bombay Bicycle Club

Speic Seoigheach- The Cheiftains

The Girl- City and Colour

Mouthwash- Kate Nash

Ritual Union- Little Dragon

Dream a Little Dream of Me- The Mamas & The Papas

Love You More- Raccoon

There is a Light That Never Goes Out- The Smiths

One Week of Danger- The Virgins

Billie Holiday- Warpaint

Enjoy! & wish me luck on all my little life things, that probably won't matter someday.

But for now, they're the biggest deal ever.

Music Crush

City and Colour has been the only thing playin' on my ipod these days.

So beautiful. And so happy.

Dear God

make me a bird so I can fly fah fah away. Name that movie.

I found a couple of snapshots from my trip to DC and they made me happy, so I had to share. Look at the duckies! How precious!

We have a 49er contest at school. The concept is to write a story in 49 words or less.

Here's mine.

Get Well

"Leave me alone Melvin!" "Shut up Lois!" The old Jewish couple's fighting again.

"We're looking for a Get Well card."

I showed them the way. "Let's get out of here Lois!" "Leave me alone Melvin!" "Have a nice day."

I watched them leave. She's sick. He's worried.

Ferris Bueller

This poor little blog has been so neglected lately. But big, stressful, life things have been happening and leaving me exhausted. College this, school that. Friends, family, church, work. There just isn't enough Emma to go around. But I did have a stress-relieving day yesterday!

My best friend Charlotte came home from her ballet boarding school for a long weekend and I ditched school to spend the day with her! It was very cold and very very rainy. But it was perfect.

Have you seen the show Parenthood? I mainly started watching it because Lauren Graham was in it, and I am Gilmore Girls no. 1 fan, but now I am totally hooked.

It honestly makes me so emotional. But in the good kind of way.

Hm, I really don't have too much else to say. I'm just working a lot. Merry Christmas by the way. Hallmark is decked out in ornaments and Peanuts products. It's a crazy time right now. Then there's college applications which are FREAKING ME OUT. I am really trying to get into BYU or BYU-I. They are cheaper for me and I just really want to try that out. Being around some different people, trying something new. It scares me to leave New England and my family though. But I need to take the plunge sometime, somehow. I really really want to get into either of those two.

I need to catch up my grades & catch up my Zzz's this weekend. That is my goal. I also have a photoshoot Saturday morning and a church activity & concert Saturday night! It is going to be a really fun weekend. No work either! How strange is that?

Have a lovely weekend kitties!