Why

You know those times when you are just so scared and tired

and you just don't know how to get where you want to be.

And then you think about the people you love and you worry you aren't 

showing them enough love

& then you worry yourself sick over them and their problems when you should be focusing on you.

And you just don't know if you have the strength in you right now to move on to this next big thing

And you are worried about this little life you've built and starting over.

But also you are dizzy and excited to be new and start out clean.

But you are still scared for everyone else. And you know you can't change that.

And you still aren't the person you want to be, but you're working on it. 

And you just want it all to play out like it does in your head

but it doesn't

and that makes you sad and frustrated.

I just can't believe today. Or this week. Or next week.

I'm not ready. We all aren't ready. This is all too too much.