A Rant

1. Eating my greens. Freshmen negative 15, hollah.

2. Accidentally taking a picture while chillin' between classes.

Ain't I purty? My head is huge.

Okay so, I'm really really homesick.

Like, I'm really missing MA.

This was probably expected, because I'm absolutely in love with New England. 

I thought going away would make me appriciate home more, and let me tell ya,

it has. 

I have been thinking all day that I want to go home.

I think I want to take a year off to make some dough, but I think I'll wait a couple years.

Also, I feel like I should transfer to BYU, because I have friends there.

But, I'm really unsure of that right now.

And then I wonder if maybe I should go to a MA state school because that would be cheap too.

Oh my goodness, I am just so conflicted.

I'm hoping that maybe I just feel this way because I'm not used to it,

but I'm just really not happy here.

I've made some friends, and the campus is beautiful, but i don't know. 

It's so different.

I know I need to give it a chance, and I will. I'm definitely sticking it out for the year.

I've just got to decide what to do.

I really don't know what's wrong with me.

I just feel like everyone is being fake nice and fake happy and forcing friendships.

I hate that! I like to naturally become friends.

Also, everyone is either married or an RM.

So I can't even befriend a guy because they're all expecting marriage.

I've already been asked if I was engaged. I moved my ring real quick. 

This is like living on Mars, seriously, where am I? 

Deep breaths. Deep breaths.