okay okay okay

weird overwhelming day

im stressed over too much

so i didnt do anything

but listen, i need to learn to take a break

i cant be hard on myself. 

im really learning how much health is a personal relationship.

my body and me, my mind and me, my spirit and me.

i feed my body whole nourishing foods (although ive had a little too much sugar & fat lately)

i move everyday, although i need to do a little bit more

& i spiritually nourish and have started meditating, which is amazing

yoga has been helping me connect to all 3 a LOT

okay so here it is, i am improving.

i really truly am. although im maintaining the weight i am at now, 

i know that i can lose those last pesky 20 pounds.

ill ramp up the exercise when i can.

right now i mentally cannot handle it. 

but summer is coming.

as for now though, i am truly learning how to take care of myself.

my food, my fitness, my soul.

im learning balance.

and its okay. it okay. its okay.

i have time. im not going backwards.

im always going forward.

im an adult now. this is my life.

i get to choose my lifestyle. and its awesome. 

i love fitness and improvement.

i just need to remind myself that it is personal.

i NEED to stop comparing myself.

i do it every single second of every day.

i need to stay passionate and fill my time with other things other than overthinking.

i think about food and fitness way to much until i feel terrible.

it consumes me. 

this is not how it is supposed to be.

its supposed to be about happiness. about self-acceptance. about self-love.

im doing the things i do because i love myself.

ill never have a successful life or relationship if i stay insecure.

im getting better. im getting stronger. 

im a hard working woman who is seeking a beautiful life.

the best life.