Bad day

I'm having a really bad day. I'm at the doctors and I am back at my highest weight ever. I'm crying in the doctors office right now. I'm embarrassed in so many ways. I know that this outburst and this weight is the effects of depression but it doesn't change how miserable I feel. I'm trying to have hope. It's just so so hard right now. 

I'm praying for strength that I can commit to this juice cleanse and flush out all my toxins and negative thoughts. I need a miracle right now because I really don't feel strong.